Of the many ideas discussed in this week’s Torah portion, one particular idea seems to be very fitting for the time of year we find ourselves in. As we know, Rosh Hashannah is just days away and thoughts of repentance and self-examination should be occupying our minds and hearts until the day of judgement comes upon us. Concerning the idea of repentance and returning to God, our parshah tells us:
“It will be that when all these things come upon you — the blessing and the curse that I have presented before you — then you will take it to your heart, among all the nations where Hashem, your God, has dispersed you; and you will return unto Hashem, your God, and listen to his voice…” [Deuteronomy: 30: 1-2]
In response to our repentance, the subsequent verses describe the acts of kindness that God Himself shall bestow upon us in kind: The verses state that God will “bring you to the land that your forefathers possessed”, “make you numerous” etc. However, after these few verses, the Torah then says: “You shall return and listen to the voice of Hashem…” Why are we returning to the idea of repentance!? The verses already started off depicting our process of repentance! What is the significance of mentioning our repentance again?
There are certainly many answers to this question, however I would like to focus on two.
The first answer is quite simple. At first, the Torah illustrates how we will be “among all the nations where Hashem, your God, has dispersed you”. Because of our fallen state of exile we recognize our sins and “take it to heart” and eventually we “return unto Hashem, your God”. By demonstrating our regret for past sins and our renewed commitment to God, God rewards us by taking us out of exile etc. But repentance does not end there! Just because we now find ourselves in more favorable circumstances, it is not an indicator that repentance is over! God does not want us to only scream out to Him when times are tough; even when we are living comfortable lives we must still make an effort to bring ourselves closer to Him. Therefore, even after the verses describe how God will “bring you to the land that your forefathers possessed”, we are nevertheless told that “You shall return and listen to the voice of Hashem…”
The second answer is also relatively simple. Unfortunately, the term “repentance” is somewhat incorrect. The more accurate translation for the Hebrew word “Teshuva” is “return”. “Teshuva” is a process whereby we regret, anguish over, and abandon our sins and ultimately bring ourselves closer, “return”, to God by following his commandments and way of life. But how can one fully return to God!? God is defined as the infinite and the unknown, how can one ever attach themselves completely to something infinite!? The answer is that we can’t, but it is very important to realize this. Someone can reach the greatest heights of righteousness and “return to God” every day of his life, but he must always realize that because there is no end to God, there is no end to the level of “returning to God’ he can perform.
Both of these answers can be highlighted in the first verse we quoted above. The verse states:
“It will be that when all these things come upon you — the blessing and the curse that I have presented before you — then you will take it to your heart… and you will return unto Hashem, your God”
By including both “blessing” and “curse”, the beginning of the verse implies that it is not enough to cry out to God only when “the curse” is upon us, but so too when “the blessing” is upon us as well. The end of the verse says that we will return “unto” God. A more accurate translation, but a rather strange way of putting it, would have been “until God”. Instead of saying that we return “to” God, the verse specifies that we return “until” God in order to convey to us that despite the intense amount of repentance we undergo, we can never fully return “to” God; we can only come as close as being just “until” Him.
May we take these messages to heart in these days leading up to Rosh Hashannah and sincerely return to God to the best of our abilities.
Good Shabbos,
Shannah Tovah,
NZL
